Sunday, July 29, 2007

I miss you already

I'm actually listening to a song right now that is entitled "I miss you" by And then I Turned Seven (now called Jamestown story). How fitting for my life right now. I hate good-byes. I had a few yesterday and found myself tearing up considerably. I never really cry when I'm actually saying good-bye to someone, but later it hits me like a ton of bricks.
Good-byes suck. That's what I usually say. And that they are super awkward. By the way, I just want to give a big shout out to Andrea for acknowledging such awkwardness! But really, the thing about good-byes is that all of a sudden you begin to realize how much people really mean to you and how much you mean to them. That's a good feeling. That's the stuff that makes me tear up.
For a person who has found a great meaning to life by enjoying the life of others; being inspired, motivated, intrigued and challenged by others in bold and subtle ways, life is going to change drastically. Most of you know my desire and need for variety, that this change will be ultimately a very good thing. I thank you for your encouragement, even from such a distance (as unwilling as that condition might be). Most of all I want you to know that I wish it was possible to be near all of you! As much as I love traveling, I wish it was possible to revert back to the days when all your family and friends lived within 5 miles of eachother. But I do love traveling, and here comes my next big trip!


Miss Bookworm said...

You will do beautifully, and you will realize that you will adapt beautifully and will enjoy the variety and challenges. At least your brother is relatively close if you get too homesick! It is nice when all of your friends live close together, but its even nicer now because when you need a change of scenery you have a reason for one :-) Im only a technological connection away... I will miss you being in MN

bittersweet leaves said...

I wanted to call you today to see how y'all were doing on the road. Are you now in CO? We're hotel-ing in Montana right now. And yes, goodbyes totally suck. And I still have to say goodbye to my parents on Sunday. I miss you, friend. Give me a call when you're settled.

Nikki said...

love you and miss you... call me sometime! :)

SK Schultz said...

miss seeing you around here - I'm sorry I didn't get to know you better.